remember how much you want it.
i've given it my all.
i can only cross my fingers now.
a week ago,
i was preparing myself mentally that its the end and that i'll be staying for good.
it was hard. the turmoil was bad.
bottom line - i was miserable.
but then all these comes, like another chance again,
a reminder that i've got more than i think, and i can push myself further than this.
sometimes i feel as if someone's playing a joke with me.
i do believe that someone up there has a plan for us.
or that maybe someone is just making a joke out of my life.