maybe its just the need to show myself that i'm good enough.
what are you doing cat. is all this effort worth it?
i've never been at a bigger cross road in my life.
at the point where i'm starting to question my own dreams.
someone, please, just tell me which way to go.
and it really doesn't help that every step i take is being scrutinized in and out by my parents. the pressure and disapproval from them is driving me nuts. the increasingly often "talks and discussions" just drives me deeper into hell. you know how each time is like a brainwashing session.
i feel like just running away for a few weeks. i really need some peace. even then, i still don't know what to do. someone, just tell me, what to do.