even though my timetable next sem sucks ttm. nobody's timetable can get worse than mine. i'm serious. even though i had to spam emails at CORS and my profs for the past week to sort out issue after issue because of the screwed system which picked me to be the unlucky one. even though there's work tmr and it's going to be another day of data entry since i'm the only free person to do saikang. even though this weekend looks like it's going to be super boring. even though my mum is breathing down my back already because i haven't been a good girl to her for the past week. it's just going to get worse til school starts.
hahaha. i want to meet you so badly. and it sucks so so so bad because i can't do anything about it. the feeling of not being able to do anything. the helpless and powerless feeling is so tiring and frustrating. how long must i stay strong. sighhh. i wake up each morning wishing i was in hk. wishing i can teleport. wishing i can just buy an air tix and flyor that you'll come.(and realising that i may really be crazy enough to do this) i'm strong. i know. and i must be. i can be. psycho-ing myself is the only way already. i'm pms-ing again, this is the only explanation.