there are so many things i want to tell you, so many things that i mind. but i know i shouldn't. i don't want to strain the relationship any further. i want you to love me and i want things to go back to how they used to be. i don't want there to be any other girl and i really don't like the way you look at some. i don't want training to take up a larger part of your life than me, but i know that is reality and you probably enjoy doing that more than seeing me.
i can only blame myself for taking things for granted in the past. just tell me what do i have to do to turn the clock back. 3 months is a long time. i just hope that a miracle can happen. i'll try my best, but everything else is up to you.
i've been hurt. deeply. and that sucks. really.
and i promise myself now that once these 3 months are up, if things can't turn around, i won't allow myself to be hurt any further. enough is enough.