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Friday, September 05, 2008, 6:18 PM
as we grow up, we want more and more.the thoughts we have become more and more complicated. til a point that i wonder what's my existance here for. as my best fren puts it, its the time we grow up. realise that we cant be so childish anymore. realise that we cant be forever naive and protected by those around us anymore. realise its time to be independent. i don't want this. i want to be a child forever. reading my juniors' blogs and my past n3s. i cant believe i was once like them. i seem to have forgotten those good old times. or maybe i just don't want to remember the happier times. its too painful to know how we've all moved on. and that those were the times that our paths once crossed. i realised how much we've all grown. including me. different from the me in sec 1&2, when i was seriously mad and hyper, laughing over every single thing and making a joke out of everything, being so carefree. i cant believe i've changed so much. the things we want, from just good grades and exceling in CCA to having people we love around us and being with the friends we really treasure and love. and so much more than that. do you still remember the times we spent backstage being nervous before each performance? tuning our pipas before each practice? practising til our fingers hurt and blisters formed just to get into the 80 for syf? practising and drilling til we could memorise every single note. not forgetting the practices where i had to teach 3 juniors and i'll end up talking and crapping with them. or the times when we juniors felt so stressed and scared when Huo was still around in rv? must be the mugging. its making me think so much. too much maybe. i'm damn sick of studying. like who's not. only if i have the courage to throw close my books. but i know its not the right thing to do. and i'll only live to regret it. 3 more months. 1 more week actully, til prelims are over for good and i can play like for a few days? haha. |