played mi today. their stronger team. we fought hard til the end but its still reality that we lost. 4-5. but never have i felt so shit after a match, maybe except during last year's nationals. i really don't know what was wrong with me today. trying so hard to concentrate, to defend, to push myself harder, but somehow, the harder i push, the more i screwed up. i could run faster than that, but i allowed them to push me around. and finally i lost my balance and fell over. the worst thing was landing on my injured knee. and i've been limping around since. recover, rest and get back on court.
and i collapsed once i reached home. exhaustion from consecutive trainings in the mornings and afternoons for the past few days.
i don't care. i'm going to get back to who i was before my CTs. i know what to do, i know i have the ability but its all jsut at the back of my brain. i need and i must get back into shape. FAST. looking forward to monday's trg, a new week, a new start. i'm going to perfect my denfending and passes.