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Tuesday, October 02, 2007, 10:07 AM
well, i was right wasn't i? this christmas would really be the last one i have you all to myself. remembering those times when i was young. when it was just you and me. now, everything would be different i guess. everything's gona be about you and him/her. haii. i duno wad to say. i really duno what to say. i should be happy right? yar, i sounded so happy on the phone. haha. i wish you knew how i was feeling inside. i know i'm being selfish, but every year. it's only you who understands. only you who know how stress how painful i'm feeling inside. it's only you. but now, i guess everything's gona be different. i dun even know whether i would look forward to go back again next year. i begged like mad for my mom to let us spend christmas in hk this year. my excuse was that i wanted to spend my birthday in hk. but i wish you knew the truth.but i wonder how would things be different. would i stil see around so often? would we still go shopping? will you still have the time to spend your nights at grandma's house and talking through the night? would you still have the chance to do each others' hair? these are one of the reasons why i beg my mom to let me go back for a few weeks. nt just a few days. remembering how hard my dad and relatives were trying to convince me to go back hk to study in future. caz they think it's so much better in hk. i would agree enthusiastically. caz i thoguht i could see you more often. caz you were one reason. caz you are different from THEM. you understand. they don't. you care. they dont's. now, i'm not so sure. why not stay in Singapore? where i have my mom, dad, bro, and friends? why bother going back and have to start everything afresh again? ok, i noe i belong there and i love hk more than sg. but they ain't enough to make me go back for the rest of my life. oh well, maybe this post sounds exaggerated. but i wish you know how it feels. to know that you would lose somone so dear to you. to know that things are going to change. big time. after today. just one phone call. but no matter what, i wish you good. i wish you all the best, and i hope that this christmas would be a memorable one. for now, PROMOS ARE OVER(((((: it's pw time )))))': i'm going back hk 4th til 28th dec this year. not bad. so long. but i'm nt sure about it. haa. |