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Monday, June 11, 2007, 9:00 PM
i want to run. just run away from this place. i'm so sick of everything. its really driving me mad. the naggings are always the same. study more impt, stop wasting your time going out with your frens, study harder, phy phy phy, must get into med in future, stop doing all your whatever projects that are not needed, cut down on your idling time, put your cca on hold til cts are over, study yada yada yada.. really makes me dread coming home. it sucks. i'm really spliting apart. can you guys just stop thinking that i haven't been mugging and assume that all i do is play and play all day. the pressure is really woalao, i duno how to describe.. is studies really just everything? and its not only studies now, its getting into med in u. i told you guys how many thousand million times, i hate science and i have NO INTENTION getting into med. you guys cant plan my future, you guys cant force me to do something for the rest of my life just caz you think its so good and you can earn so much money and my cousin is doing that. my cousin is smart. he's different. he has parents who are at home with him ALL the time teaching him and guiding him even NOW in u. he's on scholarship, 2years younger than his peers. i'm NOT that smart can. today's training wasn't a good one. i haven't touched my stick for 2 whole weeks. haii, felt quite weird at first, trying to adjust back to training mode man. ya, and i really need to get court shoes. my sports shoes just so damn slippery. when i want to stop and change direction like cannot stop one. haii. natls are just 2+ weeks away. and ya lor, we still have a long long way. i just want to put in really my 100% for the leftover trgs bar, and not regret after that. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. - Philipians 4:6-7 |